So frustrated with my weight

I haven't been doing so well with taking care of my weight loss. And I just was outside with Sammie and her friend, and as I was coming inside - watching my reflection in the storm door really bummed me out. Some days I think of just using something like a diet patch, but, I know it's about so much more than that. If that would even make a difference. I need to work on what's inside, so that I become more willing to take care of what's outside. And life just gets so hectic, you know? Or perhaps, more like probably, that's another excuse. Ugh. This is so hard. It's so simple, but, it's so hard.